I am so tired, but I am not defeated!

I went to the dermatologist this morning and they numbed the skin above my knee where they had taken the biopsy and made a much bigger hole, so they could be sure there were clean margins. Then I was off to the hospital to get the breast MRI. I had to lay on a frame that dug into my rib cage for about half an hour. Not the worst test I have ever had, but definitely not the most comfortable. So much fun. Then it was off to the pharmacy to get most of my pills refilled. I take so many medications that by the time I have taken them, I don't want to eat anything! I have to figure out a better system. Maybe take two or three and then eat and add a few more until I get through the box-full of  pills. A few injectable meds  too! I keep asking when does the fun start, but the truth is the fun has started. I have so much fun with my kids and grandkids and that is why I am fighting for everything I am worth. I feel like I am in a win-win situation. Either I am here raising my family, or I am in heaven with my king. But, I have to keep fighting because my family is not ready to go it on their own yet. Even my adult children aren't ready. So, whatever I have to do, for however long it takes, I will do it. I just have to remember when life gets tough, I have to get tougher! Anyone else out there in a similar situation? We can help each other through!
Tomorrow I am off to Moffitt for my first appointment with the doctor that will be treating the thyroid cancer. Oh, I guess I should fill everyone in. I found out a few weeks ago that besides having Non-Hodgkins follicular lymphoma, and the dysplastic melanoma, I also have thyroid cancer. Once you have one cancer it is much more likely that you will get another one, but I have never heard of anyone that is going through what I am. Have you heard of a story like this? So anyways, this should be a very informative visit. I'll let you know what happens.

Another day another doctors appt or two.

My dermatologist saw me the other day and saw a mole she didn't like the looks of because I have a history of dysplastic melanoma, so she took it off and sent it for biopsy. Well, she called yesterday and said it was mildly dysplastic and  that she had to take more off to get clear margins. That means take enough off so that they are normal cells at all the edges, and as deep as they need to go to find those normal cells. So I am off this morning to go get a bit more removed. And then lucky me after lunch I can go to the hospital to get an MRI because they saw something on a CT scan that they didn't like. I got home from my last doctors appointment last night at 7:45 pm. And tomorrow it is off to the cancer center for the thyroid cancer they just found a few weeks ago. I keep saying stop looking and we will stop finding cancer, but the truth is that I am fighting to stay alive to raise up my youngest son, and the truth is the earlier they find it, the better chance we have to treat it successfully. So that is why when my body is so tired and just wants to stay in bed and heal, I have to follow the doctors direction, because I have charged them with keeping me alive. Maybe there are other people that could provide more for him financially, but I don't believe there is anyone on earth that loves that boy more than I do. Even as he is turning into a tween and getting a braver as far as giving me a hard time, he is my son and I will fight with every ounce of strength that I have to be here for him.